Elena Radef has a calling to minister to people and lead them to have an intimate relationship with Christ.
She is an educated training instructor and psychotherapeut, and for almost three decades she has done counseling for thousands of people – as a coach and speaker. By working with humans for so many years the experience has given her a great understanding of human problems and how people relate to different issues in life.
Here she is telling about her background:
“When I was 22 years old, I had my first encounter with Jesus. I saw him after praying for three hours. I didn’t want to live anymore, and he was my last hope to get an answer about anything. I prayed of all my heart, and I knew that this was my last chance – the last cry for help. As a child I was abandoned in many ways. There had been so much pain and suffering in my childhood, and all this pain was tearing me apart completely. All my life I felt God, but not as much as on this day.
As mentioned I had the toughest moment of my life; I wished to die, and I sat down to pray. I saw Jesus, and he said to me: “From now on everything will be good”. I didn’t understand this before years later. What he meant was: “From now on I am with you”. Even this took years for me to live with and in. What Jesus meant was that he saved me, and he has saved me many, many times since then. For instance when I didn’t understand why things didn’t really work out. That was because he was protecting me from going deeper into circumstances that weren’t good for me.
Since the first time Jesus showed himself for me, he has always been there with me, showing me things, guiding me in my life, showing me visions of his kingdom, etc.
It took many years for me to handle this because I didn’t have anybody to talk to about it. I didn’t have anybody I could ask for advice and guidance. Only in the new age circuits I met someone, but not among christians or in church. For many years I was a seeker in spiritual circuits. The focus here was without Jesus or with him in combination with other deities, but not on Jesus alone. Through all those years God took care of me, preventing me for getting too involved – and he directed me back to focus on Jesus.
My parents lived as atheists, and we never talked about Jesus or God. The closes we came to talk about it was when my mum told storis from 2. world war, then she could say: “There must have been someone guarding me”.
It is clear to me that God wanted me to live in an intimate relationship with him, but it took many years for me to understand that all this was biblical. Meanwhile I turned my attention towards all kinds of alternative things.
I went from one healing session to another, anything in order to feel better, to become better, to live in that peace all the time, that I sensed within me. I used all the techniques I could think of, and it became more and more painful for me. I tried being with different gurus, yoga types, meditation on mantra, shamanic sessions, living in ashrams, channeling spirits, all different kinds of healing, clairvoyance, medium, reflexology, acupuncture, chines medicine, different kinds of therapeutic sessions and so on. They only lasted for a period of time. Read why here >>
I attended various courses and educations hoping that something would go deeper and remove the pain inside of me, and I started guiding others. After this I felt so discouraged that I got really angry at God. I couldn’t understand that he would leave me in such a misrable state.
In one way or another I kept on praying, and God started directing me in what to do. He told me that I should stop the things I was doing because it was not from God, but godly things. In other words idols. God showed me for instance that behond every yoga position there is a god or goddes – spirits – that you worship without having said yes to. It took me some time to understand this; I could only take a little at a time. In the end God made me realise who it is, who the devil/enemy is. When this was clear to me, I cleaned up all the areas of my life, including the spiritual. After this it has been easy for me to know how to act.
All the pain and misery I have carried all my life, that I tried to fix through all these things, God removed – and healed me. He healed me through his love. Only his love can do such a thing. Only his love can carry that kind of pain and remove it. Through Jesus we go to the father. Jesus takes our pain and intercede for us to our father. He is praying for us – which I think is so beautiful – and which is the reason that it’s so essential to go to Jesus. He is the door to our heavenly father. That was what I experienced in the end; to have an intimate relationship with Jesus.”